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When things don't go as planned

"Wait for the LORD; be strong and take heart and wait for the LORD." —Psalm 27:14

There's a lot in my life that happens unexpectedly. And when things don't go as planned, I start to panic. I am a huge planner. I think making lists is insanely fun, and having every aspect of my life planned out for the next week, next year, is something i find relaxing. Ironically, though, none of my dreams or goals usually happen in my own timing or the way I think they should. I think that God uses the fact of me being an over-planner to bring me to wait and rely on Him instead of myself; because often times, those plans of mine are foiled. completely.

Waiting is hard. I'm still struggling with it. Yet, God constantly proves to me that He is always faithful. I forget that I can simply ask, and simply wait. Not all of my desires are in His will or His timing, but I am confident that if a prayer is not answered, something much more sweet is given in its place.

Too many times have I wanted to jump ahead in life and rush to whatever I thought was the next big thing. Too often I became upset when things didn't go as planned. Too many times did I forget that there's many things to cherish in the present. Too many times did I worry about tomorrow, when the Bible clearly states that I don't have to. Too many times did I forget to stop, and just thank God for today being today. Too many times did I forget to enjoy life, here, right now.

Paul David Tripp wrote via Twitter, "Waiting bothers us because it's in the way of our plans but it's never in the way of God's plan of grace for us." It hurts how true this is of me. I am so fickle, friends, and I fail constantly. But praise God who gives me enough grace for each day and as I fail Him, lovingly brings me back to Himself.

My heart is full. Full with joy, full with awe. I serve an amazing, gracious God. Right now, I'm waiting on answers, waiting on people, and waiting ultimately for the Lord. Many times, things don't always go as planned; and while I may not understand why, I am confident in the fact that they are ultimately for my good. I am convinced that this time is being used to conform me more to His image and I am so very glad.

I have a question

DSC_2848-7 Why is it that whenever I go to social media, I feel insignificant afterwards? Why does it seem that, especially online, people have better, more exciting lives than I do? Why is it so hard being content? I can't help but often feel that pang of jealousy...inadequacy...comparison stealing my joy. But perhaps this is just me.

The answer to those above questions is this: I'm a selfish human being.

I realized that, the Internet only captures a moment in time— not the before or after. We're given a small detail and get to run with it. That photo shows her laughter but not those tears she cried the night before. That update marks his milestone of success, but it doesn't show those days where everything was out of control.

Looking at what I've posted in the past and summing all those up, my life looks pretty awesome. But honestly, my life isn't perfect although I prefer to portray it like that. My heart is so fickle, so prideful, so conceited!

It's easy to become so caught up in the stresses of life that I forget what really matters. I get too tied up with trying to get those perfect shots for Instagram and Vine that I miss the things that can't be remade. I miss the bursts of joy and excitement with those around me because my face is glued to my phone— envying others and what I don't have. I miss precious time and conversations with God and the people I love. I hope that I'm not the only one who struggles with this.

Instead of updating your status to how you won another game of Mouse Trap, play the game again. Instead of posting on that person's wall, why don't you call them and invite them to coffee? Instead of wanting to get 50 likes on your profile picture, why don't you tell someone that they mean a lot to you? Instead of wishing your hair and wardrobe and face looked like hers, sign off and thank the Lord for making you, simply you.

Friends, learn how to be content with where you are in life and stop comparing yourself to others. I'm learning each and every day and I'm so convicted. Remember that Jesus is all you need, despite how appealing others' lives are around you. &Chances are, that person's life probably isn't all that glamorous as it's made out to be. Instead of focusing on other people's lives and what you don't have, strive to constantly say, "I am full and content by the grace of God."

Just being normal.

It's okay to be normal. I've realized lately how much society pushes for individuality. How everyone nowadays should be different and stand out...Be a head taller (haha, never happening) and have a "thing" that they're good at. Graduate high school with distinction and leave an impact. Every human is different, but when it comes down to myself, the lines start to blur and it's hard to distinguish if I really am different, or if I'm like everyone else around me. When I truly ask myself, what makes me different; the honest answer is I don't know. I guess I'm just normal. And that's totally okay.

Summer is only 43 days away. The last day of school, it's always the cliché, "Let's hang out over summer!" but part of you knows that chances are, it probably won't happen often, if at all. Summer is the season of change. So many people and things change, and it's scary. Time flies, sometimes quite literally. Part of me wants it to slow way down, but another part of me can't wait for what the future holds. School this year has brought its many joys, and before I know it I'll be a junior. It's strange, realizing that I'm growing up because quite frankly, I still sometimes feel like a freshman.

Sometimes, it's better not to think and just enjoy the moment instead. I'm that type of person who likes to over think things, especially things that don't matter, and when I do, it's easy to miss those little joys in life that cannot be remade. I like to wonder what people think about me and if my bangs looked weird that day, or if people noticed how I tripped going up the stairs. I'm learning how to laugh at myself and spend my time well; remembering the things worth remembering.

Think greater thoughts of Christ. I've noticed how easily I tend to become upset or stressed in situations. But, if I think greater thoughts of Christ and focus on how He's all I really need, how different my perspective on life can be! Finishing that paper can be put off until tomorrow, and sending that angry, pride-filled, message to someone turns into something more humbling.

Spending time with people is so worth it, even if it's only for a minute. It's just not the same over text or Facebook. Spending time with someone in-person, face-to-face, is very much more sweeter. Much deeper, more meaningful conversations abound where you can see that glint in their eye, or that way their nose scrunches up when they laugh.

These were some of the many thoughts that happened today, just a normal Tuesday.

Dear spring,

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You're wonderful. Words cannot describe how glad I am that you've decided to start making appearance. I like being able to wake up to the birds singing their melodies each morning. I like being able to see blossoms peek out from across the street. I like that I'm finally able to have my window open while I sleep and feel that gentle breeze through my window as my radio plays tunes in the background. I like the realization that warmer weather is on its way, despite how now, it’s warm one day and snowing on the next. I really do hope that you stay a while. You're that special balance between freezing and the smoldering heat that I absolutely love. love, Hannah

Choosing joy

This morning I came across this quote written by Steve Robinson: "Worrying is temporary atheism." Anyone who knows me personally knows that I'm a worrier. The quote was a definite slap in the face and boy did I need it. It's sad that I can always find something to worry about; whether it be about people and what they think of me or getting somewhere on time. Worrying is selfish.

Perhaps I think that by worrying, the outcome of something might be different. Later I realize that worrying is simply wasted time and emotion. I often have to ask myself, "How can I trust God with my spiritual life, yet not my physical life? You trust in Jesus, and only Jesus for your salvation, so why are you troubled?" What a fickle, selfish heart I have! My prayer is that God would transform it.

1 Peter 5:7 says, "Cast all your anxiety on Him because He cares for you." The thought that, out of millions of people in the world, the God of the universe is willing to look down upon me..Is so very humbling. Dear friends, remember God and trust Him. There is so much to be joyful about today. Choose joy and put off worrying.