I will see the goodness of the Lord
Before school came to a close last year, I was fortunate enough to become a part of Chick-fil-A and work behind their counters. These past 12 weeks have been pure bliss. I absolutely love my job and I am so grateful for every moment I spend at the store. Wonderful people who make my time there so enjoyable abound. I would not trade my job there for anything in the world. Not everyone has the opportunity to take ugly selfies with co-workers and not feel weird. Not everyone goes on special outings the one day everyone has off. My job is such a blessing. Some days though, it is easy to come home and feel like you've been thrown from where you stand into a puddle of mud and left there. There are days where everything that you hoped wouldn't happen, happens... There are the things you have no control over and you're left dumbfounded and wondering. Or when you're told something and have no idea how to respond. You have those times where people blow up in your face and all you feel like doing is going to a corner and never coming out. Getting up, shaking everything off, and continuing to smile is not a piece of cake in the slightest.
I came home from work crying today. Got a hug, dried the tears, and then cried again. I came across Psalm 27:13 as I scrolled around on my phone. The verse reads, "I remain confident of this: I will see the goodness of the LORD." I am so grateful to know that Jesus is using every little detail for my good and his glory, even when I don't understand what's going on or why certain things are happening. I'm grateful that he is sovereign and so very kind. He protects me in my days of trouble the same way He does in my days of peace & i have so many evidences of graces from my past to prove it.
It is not easy to share my life, even if it's vaguely like this. Being an introvert, I prefer to keep things locked up and build walls. most times, my posts are deleted before I hit 'publish'. &I am aware that almost, if not all, of my writing address things about Jesus. I write about Jesus because I love Him and because this is what He is doing right now in my life. Please know, that I am not asking you to be religious as I am, or write about the same things I do, but I am asking you to read about what Jesus is doing in my life and my walk as a Believer. I have been paid for, rescued, and forgiven all by a Savior who decided to love an undeserving and sinning orphan from China. My life is so radically different from what it was before, and I think that the least I can do is write about it. My journey isn't all fluff and fun..It’s the messy, it's the struggles, the hardship, the sweat, the tears, and the faith in the one who gave me the light to see. It'll be a crazy ride, and I'm so very glad Jesus will be with me every single step of the way.