I'm a sixteen year old girl who prefers to listen rather than talk. I have a quiet voice, but when I sing to myself or shout loudly, heads turn, which, makes me uncomfortable. And I reaaally don't like being outside of my comfort zone. I only play the piano when I think nobody's listening, I strongly dislike trying new things and surprises, & when things go wrong, I panic more than I should. I'm an introvert who enjoys trying to figure out people and I'm trying to become outgoing. I whole-heartedly believe that I'm funnier than I really am, and I say most of the things I do to make myself laugh. I consider myself to be awkward to a degree; and I believe that having a sweatshirt which says, "Hello I'm awkward" proves it. I don't like asking for help or asking questions because I hate to be a bother. I don't like to feel vulnerable and I don't like getting hurt. I have a hard time saying no, but I have a hard time saying yes, too. I dream big and often times find myself wanting to be at the finish line, rather than enjoying where I am now. I can go weeks without touching my camera or pen, but when I pick them back up, I can't put them down. I don't like taking photos without a reason or purpose, and I push myself and my gear to their limits. When I write, I want it to be perfect, but most times it's not. I have a hard time coming up with something I'm proud of. I'm a lover of contractions and simple sentences despite my attempts to stop. I'm also learning to accept that it's fine if I'm not the most inspirational writer or photographer, but it's okay to do what I love simply because I can.
I want to grow in love for those around me and treat others as brothers and sisters in Christ. I so often forget that God is good and that He cares for my soul. I often forget that faith isn't easy, but that Christ will never leave or forsake me. I forget that I was created in His image and my value is in Him. I have a sinful heart that longs to be more like Christ and one that's easily discouraged when I fail Him or others around me. I have a heart that is constantly learning to say, "it is well with my soul".
I write this to shed some real, authentic light on who I am. Not for pity or applause. So often, I think that I should only share life's highs, but never the lows or in-betweens. i forget that there's joy in all of these if you just look for it. I don't want to be presented as a super version of myself; I want to be presented as me. I love Jesus and I fail Him all the time, but I love that Jesus is working within me. I love seeing his hand in everything that's happened so far in my life, and I love that it's all for his glory. I love that I'm Hannah Forsberg, I love who I'm becoming, I'm beyond thrilled for the future, and I can't wait to see where God will take me. I live a not-so, glamorous life. And that's perfectly okay with me.